Eydron

I've been actually very busy being all artsy-fartsy at my free-time, but I'm so self critical I just hate almost everything I accomplish. I have some high hopes about my development but once again I feel like I can't (yet) be as good as I am expecting from myself. I try to be positive, with all: "Oh come on, any practice is always a step forward!" -thoughts but I can still hear that annoying nagging inside my head: "You've been doing this all your life and can you say you've improved? Yes, but not enough". Although at least my self critique is driving me forward and keeps me trying even harder. (My inner voice: "You've been spending so much

So I have Photoshop and I keep trying to make some great color works with it - aaaaand keep on failing of course. I don't even know what I do wrong, but obviously I need so much practise that I'm losing my temper already! You know the feeling when you've been doing the same work for hours and then just say "F this, it's already ruined!"... that's me practising basically. Hate it but probably have to do it again and again till I get it right. So mad at myself right now ("Why I'm so stupid I don't get this?!") and I bet there's even more of this when I open my PS again. Maybe some day, however, I'll surpass my expectations...